Often at work, I open my copy of Marcus Aurelius's Meditations and jump to a random page, and read a verse or two. I find that at $OLDJOB this brought me back to center and inspired me even when I was frustrated and angry. At $NEWJOB I've been continuing this tradition, we are far to often fed frustation, disappointment and self doubt as part of the ration of our daily lives and I for one would rather feed the better parts of my nature when I can. Especially since I all to often sucumbe to the the former rather then the later. This morning, this is what I read:
The first Rule is, to keep an untroubled spirit; for all things must bow to Nature's law, and soon enough you must perish into nothingness, like Hadrian and Augustus. The second is to look things in the face and know them for what they are, remembering that it is your duty to be a good man. Do without flinching what man's nature demands; say what seems to you most just - though with courtesy, modesty, and sincerity.
Yeah. What he said. I'm going to do that.
Going for sort of a punk rock Aloha look tonight... now sure how thats going to work out...
My last day at $JOB was on Friday, and it feels like I've set myself adrift. There was no deluge in my mailbox this morning. No alerts on my phone. No problem to solve... not fire to put out. Weirdly, it feel lonely, and quiet. I feel like I've been at a concert full of crowded fury and noise for the last few years, and suddenly, I woke up in an empty concert hall.
I miss you LJ. Kind of alot. I miss your chitty chatty. I miss you deep moments. I miss your silly bullshit. Hell, I miss your drama. I miss you, and I don't know how to get you back. Suck.
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